Familiar

It's been a long time.

And i have rubbed many a rock into sand

pondering Love, and Life, and War and Peace

pondering how worthless pondering is

There is no last vestigial string

holding me to what is real

i am floating with no friction

to direct where i need to be

where i want to be

where, if i was right, i'd be

It's been a long time

Since i stretched my fingers and

reached for the wretched beauty

dangling off the cliff

Or since i held on too fiercely to

the puzzle pieces making the difficult fit

around my irregular edges

i wish i could feel like a prisoner again

and push and pull and struggle!

to break free into the enticing unknown

It's been a long time. 

And i have longed to long again

for the light of day, the dark of the night

the confusion of dawn and dusk

i need to run, so far, so fast

that the past is pulled into the future

and shine so dark and dense

that reality collapses into free fall

and roar so loud and coarse

it ruptures this realm to render another

'Cuz really now,
it's been a long time.